Tag!

Nicole tagged me.  This is quite the difficult assignment.  I actually have to really think about myself and my views.  I'm usually thinking about my kids and their needs and wants.  It's good for me to search myself for answers. I actually have been contemplating starting a MJ in depth blog.  I want to really express myself and sometimes I'm fearful of what others would say or wouldn't say.

I am: a part-time teacher, full-time mom and wife, and a people pleaser.

I think: about all I don't get done instead of what I accomplish.

Everything in life: starts and ends with family.

I want: to get a pedicure, go to a movie, shop for a new pair of jeans without finding a babysitter.

I have: the best mother in the world.  She does so much for me and my family.  

I dislike: the hours Chris has to work.  It seems like we are together when we sleep and that is about it.

I miss: myself.  I used to be such a fun people-person.  I remember in high school and in my early college years I was everyone's friend, so confident, and outgoing.  I have become way more guarded and fearful of others opinions of me.

I fear: someone being mad at me.

I feel: like I'm not a very interesting person.

I hear: Chris laughing at Seinfeld.  He has such a great laugh-out-loud laugh.  I never laugh during movies or when I watch TV but he cackles!

I smell: nothing.  I have a little stuffy nose.

I crave: cake.  All the time. Any kind.

I cry: when I feel like I have no control over the situation I'm in or when I am feeling sorry for myself.

I search: blog sites for good ideas to do with my family and/or fun things to blog.  Often times I get so overwhelmed with others "amazing"ness that I give up.  I need to stop comparing myself and appreciate myself.  

I wonder: who will win the presidential election.

I regret: speaking my mind when it offends others.  I've lost a few close friends when I shared with them how I really feel, and I miss them.

I wish: for the type of home that people feel welcome in.  Growing up, my house was always somewhere people were always welcome.  I want to have my children's friends feel at home and want my friends to feel free to open my fridge and help themselves.

I love: Chris. Carter. Kathryn. Kimball. My mom.  My dad. Holidays. Parties. 

I care: about my students.

I always: brush my teeth.  I can't stand the feeling of my teeth if I haven't brushed.

I am not: a tidy person.  

I remember: very little.  Most of what I remember in detail is when I have been in trouble.

I believe: in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.  I believe I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and I love him.  

I sing: in the car.  Desperately wishing I could sing on key.  In the car I pretend I can sing every note.

I don't always: Shower. Especially when I don't have to work.  My hair is always in a pony tail lately and I only put on make-up when I'm driving to school!

I argue: with Chris about money. 

I write: in my journal every few months. I write e-mails to my students' parents every night.

I win: games or I don't play them.  I get really ticked off if I lose at games.  Especially Acquire.

I lose: when debating politics.  I don't have a strong enough opinion to withstand any one's criticism. 

I listen: to every word Carter and Kathryn says.  I wish I could memorize every word that comes out of their mouths.  No matter what I'm doing I am addicted to what they say.

I don't understand: the stock market.

I can usually be found: at home doing laundry.

I need to: stop eating Fiber One bars.  They make me so gassy.

I forget: my cell phone all the time.

I am happy: when I get to be with Chris AND the kids.

I tag: Melissa, Holly, CUZ, and Judith and anyone else that desires to dig deep.